We decided that we would have a gender reveal at Thanksgiving so we can announce to everyone what I was having. This went against everything I had always said I wanted to do. I had always said that I did not want to know what I was having mainly because I have always been dead set against getting a ton of pink stuff if I ever had a girl. However, my mom somehow convinced me to have a gender reveal; this happened because I knew my family wanted to know, so I decided to do it.
Come Thanksgiving, we were having a big problem trying to get our gender reveal to go right. Mom was the only one who knew what I was having because dad wanted to be just as surprised (Shock!). We had discussed getting some powder balls and to do the reveal dad would pitch me the ball and I would break it open with a bat (we love baseball). However, the place we ordered from did not send out the package when they were supposed to so they were not supposed to arrive until AFTER Thanksgiving. We then had to rush around to try to find a way to do the reveal. We settled on getting a cake and were able to get one ordered so we could pick it up on the Wednesday before Thanksgiving.
So, we come to mom and I going and picking up the cake and we made one mistake; I went inside the shop to help mom get the cake, when I should have stayed in the car. Unfortunately, when we picked up the cake, the person who gave us the cake accidentally said what I was having revealing to me and ruining the surprise. We could tell that she was so upset that she did that and I knew mom was upset. I let them know not to worry about it and that I could act surprised come reveal time. Plus, I told mom I already had a feeling because of how she had been talking recently.
So, time for the reveal and we have the whole family watching: mom, dad, Thomas, Michael and Grandma on Face Time, along with baby’s godmother, Shawn. I had been a little excited to give Thomas and Shawn shirts asking them to be the godparents and they were so excited. However, that is where my excitement ended. I already knew what I was having, so I couldn’t really be too excited in the moment. When we did the reveal, I acted as surprised as I could and we all found out together I was having a boy (much to dad’s disappointment).
You would think that after finding out what I was having I could feel more excited and become more aware of what was growing inside of me. However, I still did not feel like anything was real and was kind of numb to what was happening. I was happy to tell everyone what I was having, including my coworkers and students, but I still did not feel like I was a mother.
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